Pain&RazorBlades♥

CAMHS FIRST APPOINTMENT

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 15:11:43 -0400

Thank you so much everyone for the lovely messages about CAMHS! It didn’t go to well today and i don’t think much of my counselor but i was only there for an hour or so and wasn’t anywhere near as bad as i thought! :) The messages people have been sending me really made me smile and im so grateful to have such lovely followers!;) <3

CAMHS

Thu, 31 May 2012 17:16:13 -0400

Very first CAMHS appointment tomorrow morning! Shitting ittttt especially as my Mums coming with me! Anyone know what to expect on your first one??:L Its for self harm obviously. Thanks! ♥

texan-rose: ^

Thu, 31 May 2012 17:02:28 -0400

texan-rose:

^

I wish i could find every single person with cuts and scars on their body and give them a hug.

Thu, 31 May 2012 16:59:22 -0400

I wish i could find every single person with cuts and scars on their body and give them a hug.

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Thu, 31 May 2012 16:53:43 -0400

My behavioral manager asking me whether I’ve eaten yet today every single time i see him!...

Tue, 29 May 2012 18:10:03 -0400

My behavioral manager asking me whether I’ve eaten yet today every single time i see him! He’s also asked my friends to make sure i eat so im fucking screwed.

thetemptresstemptsme: I’ve got this horrible habit of peeling...

Tue, 29 May 2012 18:05:01 -0400

thetemptresstemptsme:

I’ve got this horrible habit of peeling my scabs.

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Tue, 29 May 2012 18:02:12 -0400

Self harm survey 1 How old were you when you started self-harming? Younger than...

Tue, 29 May 2012 18:00:51 -0400

Self harm survey

1 How old were you when you started self-harming?

Younger than 4
4-5
6-7
8-9
10-11
12-13
14-15
15-16
16-17
18-19
20-21
Older than 21

2 How often do you self-harm

More than once a day
Once a day
Several times a week
Once a week
Two or more times a month
Once a month
Several times in a year
Once a year
I have stopped
I am trying to stop

3 What method of self-harm do/did you primarily use?

Cutting
Burning
Hair-pulling
Scratching
Interference with the healing of wounds
Hitting or bruising
Bone breaking
Cutting and Scratching
Cutting and Burning
Hitting Head against walls
Binging
Purging
Starving
Other

4. If You Self Harm What Sexual Orientation Are You?

Straight Male
Straight Female
Bi-Sexual Male
Bi-Sexual Female
Homosexual Male
Homosexual Female
Transgender Male
Transgender Female
Questioning Male
Questioning Female
Pan-sexual Male
Pan-Sexual Female
Prefer not to answer

5 Which Of These, If Any, Are Something You Struggle With Along With Self-harm?

Anorexia
Bulimia
Anorexia and Bulimia
EDNOS
Suicidal Ideation
Various Psychiatric Disorders (I think have depression, I haven’t been diagnosed)
Learning Disabilities
A Mixture of the Above
None of the Above

6 Do You Think That You (as An Individual) Need Professional Help To Stop Self-harming?

Yes, The Only Way I Could Stop Is With Professional Help
No, I Have Stopped On My Own
No, I Have Stopped On My Own Though I Still Struggle Often And Sometimes Mess Up
I Have No Desire To Stop And Therefore Don’t Need Professional Help
Yes, I Have Stopped With Professional Help
I don’t think I could ever stop with or without Professional help
Prefer not to answer

7 Are You Trying To Stop Self Harming?

No, And I Don’t Want To Stop.
No, But I Would Like To Be Able To Stop.
Yes, But I Am Not Doing Very Well.
I Have Stopped But I Still Mess Up Every Once In A While.
I Am Completely Self Harm free

8 Does Anyone Know About Your Self Harm?

No. No One Knows.
Some People May Have A Vague Idea Of Something
Yes, But Only My Closest Friends, Mum/Dad. and my school.
Yes. But Only Some Of My Family Member(s)
Yes, Some Friend(s) And Family Member(s) Know
Yes, All (or Most Of) My Friends Know
Yes, All (or Most Of) My Family Knows
Yes, Most Of The People In My Life Know

9 How many years have you been self-harming?

1 or less years
2 years
3 years
4 years
5 years
6 years
7 years
8 years
9 years
10 or more years

10 If You Self-harm, Were You Abused Or Neglected (either As A Child Or Later In Life)?

No
Yes, I Was Emotionally Abused
Yes, I Was Physically Abused
Yes, I Was Sexually Abused
Yes, I Was Emotionally And Physically Abused
Yes, I Was Physically And Sexually Abused
Yes, I Was Sexually And Emotionally Abused
Yes, I Was Emotionally, Physically And Sexually Abused
Yes, I Was Neglected
Yes, I Was Neglected As Well As Being Abused

11 Would you label yourself as emo?

12 Do others label you as emo?

Yes
No
Some people

13 What would you or others label you as? (chose all that apply)

Please select all that apply.

Prep
Goth
Emo
Punk
Nerd
Hipster
Poser
Skater
Jock
Scene
Gangster
Other (Metalhead, geek, gamer, and otaku)
I don’t do labels
There aren’t really any labels above that fit me
Normal

14 What is your reaction when you see other people’s self-harm scars/cuts/marks? (choose all that apply)

Please select all that apply.

I want to get to know them
I wonder what they went through to feel that was a way out
I want to get as far as possible from them so no one will find out about my own self-harm
I will acknowledge them as someone who shares something in common with me
I would never even acknowledge them
Fear
Interest
Sadness
Happiness
Don’t really care
No reaction
Surprise
Relief
Jealousy

counselor: have you cut anymore? me: counselor: me: counselor: me: no

Sun, 27 May 2012 11:46:19 -0400

counselor: have you cut anymore?

me:

counselor:

me:

counselor:

me: no

victoriaduchess: p-faff: roooster: just walk it off. drink...

Sun, 27 May 2012 09:54:47 -0400

victoriaduchess:

p-faff:

roooster:

just walk it off.

drink water you’ll be fine

it’s only gonna bruise a little

just put a plaster on it

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Sun, 27 May 2012 09:40:15 -0400

how many people follow you ?

Sat, 26 May 2012 15:04:36 -0400

um 36:) ♥

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Mon, 21 May 2012 18:15:05 -0400

hey you don't know me but i'm proud that you stop cutting c:

Mon, 21 May 2012 18:14:12 -0400

Thank you!♥ means a lot just hope i can keep it up!:)

14 days clean!! No new cuts for 2 weeks…. this is pretty much a record for me! And considering...

Mon, 21 May 2012 18:08:38 -0400

14 days clean!! No new cuts for 2 weeks…. this is pretty much a record for me! And considering all the shit I’ve been getting at school im pretty damn pleased with myself!♥

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Sat, 19 May 2012 07:16:40 -0400

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Sat, 19 May 2012 07:02:37 -0400

OMFG

Fri, 18 May 2012 17:56:32 -0400

omg.. my behavior manager was a complete dick today. He thinks i have an eating disorder as well as self harm so he told my friends to make sure i ate a proper meal at lunch. So they were practically forcing food down my throat while they ate practically nothing as usual! Fucking pissed me off…. i dont have an eating disorder but i would like to be able to eat whatever i want at lunch without being forced to eat!! Oh and i got a letter from camhs yesterday telling me when my first appointment was!! 2 weeks today! Bricking it…. any ideas of what to expect!? :3

Self harm

Wed, 16 May 2012 16:16:37 -0400

10 days clean about to go down the drain cause of 1 shit day at school! I’m so pathetic. Basically I bunked of this morning and then got caught and bought into school where I got bollocked my the behavioural manager again and then had to sit in the isolation room by my self all afternoon. The only good thing was one of my teachers who knows about my sh came and had a chat with me at lunchtime and she’s always so lovely and I think she’s the only one who actually cares about me. I feel like I’m failing everyone by cutting but I can’t help it!!!:L